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Word Feb. 5th, 2008 @ 01:24 pm
Hi all,

It's been a while since I've posted anything of substance. This won't be much better, but I'm on lunch break and figured I'd update. I'm super stressed, the biggest (really: only) reason is because my applications are out. Boston University, San Francisco State, Florida State are all at their destinations. I have no idea when SF will notify me, BU will let me know at the end of March, and FSU will let me know if I have an interview at the end of February. I really can't wait, mostly because it puts the rest of my life on hold. If I only have 7 more months at this job, that's fine, but if there's no end in sight (because I didn't get into grad school), I have no idea what I'm going to do.

Random sidenote: I saw this amusing video short a while back, it may have been on youtube, or it may have been on triggerstreet, but it was funny, and I can still recall it. I found out that the director of the short was Jason Reitman of Juno and Thank You for Smoking fame. He went to USC for screenwriting.

Not much else to say at the current moment. If you're in the area and want to collaborate on anything visual, let me know, I'm kind of sinking here by myself.

Jan. 14th, 2008 @ 08:45 pm
So, I'm trying to get into Boston University's school of communication. Part of the application process is to do a "photo story" with the following instructions:

"Use nine photographs to tell a short story that illustrates the development of a clearly defines emotion. Arrange your photos in a numbered sequence. Photographs must be taken by you and must stand alone without words. Visual storytelling and design will be judged above photographic quality."

This is the first one, I will probably do 2 more, and decide between them. For the most part the photographs themselves are pretty terrible, point-and-shoots do not do the trick.

The emotion is...ExhaustedCollapse )

Go See Juno Dec. 26th, 2007 @ 10:51 am
Thundercats are GOOOOOO!

how can you crack a smile if you can't laugh at yourself? Dec. 6th, 2007 @ 10:47 am
Sort of going crazy.

I'm starting to believe I have cabin fever. There are very few friends in the area, and going from last year (in school, too much to do) to this year (at work, little to do) has hit me pretty hard. I can't do this job, I can't do any job in this field, it's just not working. I feel myself growing more irritable at work, and I don't want to be, especially to people who have done nothing wrong.

I have 3 apps going out: Florida State, San Francisco State, Boston University. BU is really my only good shot, and only marginally good at that. I don't know what I'll do if I don't get in. Sit at this desk for another year? How do people do this? How do they ignore that they're dying every day? At least in school I had too much to worry about to care that every day meant a day closer to death, but now, it's all I can think about. Almost all I can think about. I have a ray of sunshine on weekends, but she can't amuse me 24/7 and she can't get me into graduate school, no matter how much I believe she is the reason that I'm getting my shit together and applying.

I don't know what the next step is. If I don't get in, where do I go? What do I do? I can't stay and live like this, it doesn't fit me, I don't know how I ever thought it would fit me. My room seems smaller every day, and every day I die some more, which wouldn't matter if I didn't spend so much time thinking about it.

I need a hobby.

Aug. 16th, 2007 @ 01:37 pm
If America stopped supporting Israel, what would it lose?
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» I got my iPod stolen today.
The title says it all. I'm not really mad...just confused, confused at how I reacted.

We were playing 4 square at a school in town, it's a lower income housing part of Portland (to some extent, it kind of bridges a higher-living section). I had left my car across the street with the window down, which I almost always do. When we were done playing 4 square I went to my car, and from across the street I saw a guy getting out of my car. The guy was black, which doesn't matter as much for the story as how I reacted. So I went over, and he was looking at me, but didn't leave. I asked him what he took, and said nothing, and said to check if I wanted. I don't know if it was out of gullibleness or out of surprise for what was happening that I didn't, I just got in my car, and he walked away, my iPod was gone.

What should I have done? Every stereotype jumped into my head. Could he have a gun? Do I want to press this? In a part of town where I'd be outnumbered? Is it my fault 'cause I left my window open? (Yes). Do I care if he has a gun? Are these thoughts 'cause he's black? Given, I think I wouldn't have tried to take on a white guy who was at least a half foot taller than me. The iPod's probably worth $150 tops at this point, do I care? I was going to get a new one anyways...I always said if someone stole it I wouldn't care. What if this were 5 years ago, and I was poor as fuck? Is this one of those things that makes you never trust an [insert stereotype] again? I don't know what I should have done, and really I don't care about the object...just about what happened. Was it life or death, or did I just make it that way. Forgetting the stereotype about black people, and remembering the ones about fat kids, he could have just run, had I pressed it, and I guess that's the smarter plan, 'cause who wants to shoot somebody?

Just makes you think I guess.
» Reflections (When all I could see was myself looking back at me)

Lots has been going on in my life, it's kind of nuts, but I'm glad (and sad) that it's all cooling down soon.

I had this big plan:

-Get a full-time job
-Start building up a video portfolio
-Apply to grad school
-Get into grad school
-Hot casting couch sex

I had been worried for a long time, but part one is finally going to happen. I have a full-time job that will start 1 week after school ends. It's the same job I was going last summer, if anyone actually wants details, I'll give them, but not online.

All the other steps will have to be worked out, but that's in the future.

So there I was.

Drank some Strongbow in Maryland, which is where I've been all week.. Probably my last vacation with my parents and siblings. I just wish it had gone better. There wasn't really a game plan, and the weather has been shitty, so I've spent a lot of time online talking to new and old friends.

My mom gave me a book on the golf's Major tournaments to read on the way down, it's been a good reminder of the enjoyment I get from being on the golf course.

I got busted at school for downloading, I still don't know what I downloaded, but I know I got caught, I'm not declaring myself guilty until I have proof. It's not hard to spoof a MAC address at UMF, which means it's not hard to impersonate someone on our network. I won't go into details (talk to me if you want them), but it doesn't take much.

Speaking of UMF, I'm going to miss it. This year I've done a lot of things I've wanted to do, didn't think I should do, didn't think I could do, and I've been happy every step of the way. I'm going to be up to visit a lot this summer, or at least I believe I will. I want the only thing to prevent my visiting to be me shooting films.

Oi, so much to say, not any good way to put it into words.
» I tried
In the final analysis, the President's Council did not approve your request.
The UMF culture in which alcohol is downplayed, the relatively small number
of students who would actually be of age and permitted to drink, the history
of problems associated with senior socials off campus, the desire not to
suggest that the only way to have fun is to hold a dance or party on campus
at which alcohol is served, and opening the floodgates for alcohol at more
dances, were all cited as reasons for the decision. I was surprised to
learn that the only events at which alcohol is officially served on the
campus currently are during visits from the Board of Trustees and the senior

3:55:11 PM
» Shit bitch
Okay, 25 years, fucking 25 years Imus in the Morning has been on air, and one comment about "knappy-headed hos" and he's off the air.  Did his sponsors even listen to his show before that point?  Have they ever listened to his show?  I think he's pretty fucking stupid to begin with, but this is the straw the broke the camels back?  Everybody's a little bit racist.
» Opening Day
Today is MLB's opening day. The sport has always been a source of enjoyment to me, but opening day only recently became an enjoyment. Being from Maine, my love for the Red Sox is probably the biggest reason for my enjoying baseball so much, and every game (especially early ones) play into the fantasy of the October run for the series. On top of this, I love the "olden days", specifically the first half of the last century, and the game of baseball was quite large back then, and some of the biggest records in baseball came from that time period. This is why I can't have blind hatred of the Yankees. They've always spent the most money on their players, but this has afforded them the ability to own some of the greats. I like the idea that some records will never be broken, I like that some will go down in history, and I wish that some had gone down in history (I don't believe that McGwire legitimately broke Roger Maris's record, nor do I believe Bonds did). Tomorrow will be a good day (Sox opening day).

-I think that Sosa, McGwire, and Bonds were/are all juiced. The time-frame for this dramatic shift in HRs makes no sense. Furthermore, once Bonds started to come close to the record, he stopped stealing bases, and he used to be a 30-30 man.

-Sox fans make fun of Yankees for how much money they spend every year, which is terribly glass-houseish since the Red Sox and Yankees are in their own echelon in terms of yearly spending, a salary cap would fuck some shit up.

-I consider Cy Young to be the best pitcher ever, with no one even coming close. 749 complete games, the closest active player to the is Roger Clemens (who's a year from retirement) and he only has 118. If there is one record that won't be broken, it'll be this one.

-I want to see someone come close to Joe DiMaggio's hitting streak record, it's one of the most impressive, and if someone were using steroids it wouldn't make as much of a difference.

-I also want to see .400 broken, because it's been so long (1941) since someone (Ted Williams) has done it.
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